Friday, September 15, 2006
to whoever who reads this: dun ask me for details. i will tell u if u need to know. but im jus venting out my frustrations. HAHA.
to those bazooka nanny hut ski pple. DAMN NAJI. HELLO. theee warld ice oonfar.and my dei rear arsh bytch. i think whee mossh sheel b so posh die arsh. asshole. she sumarai siew org gee.(oops) stelled whah neh floo art tye. oohhhh miee gar ward.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAhAHAHAHAhAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHa
SRESSED UP. NAN HUA PRELIMS SUCKS (: auricle (:
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
I never knew why i said such things.
wont u even hate me.
wont u even leave me.
arent u tired of my nonsense already.
arent u hurt by my remarks.
dont u want to abandon me.
dont u want to slap me.
why no?
im so afraid.
he'll take me away some day.
so afraid.
i just want you to find happiness before he takes me away.
seriously i do.
i dun wan u to get hurt.
never will i want to see you get hurt.
DADDY cant u see
im struggling so hard.
cant u let me be
do u have to pull me apart.
i pray not.
in your ways. i want to abide.
but thr are rules i have to defy.
my love never felt so strong.
cant u jus let me be.
to #09
ive done so many things against my will.
in hope u wld lose faith.
ive said so many things against my will.
in hope u wld lose trust.
ive tried my very best.i rilly did.
but we still cant be apart.
sorry i love you too much.
the deeper my love.
the deeper the hurt.
i love you.
#04
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Saturday, June 10, 2006
ENCOUNTER THE HOLY SPIRIT (:
I LOVE THE CAMP. missing it like crazy now (:
made so many new brothers and sisters. THANK GOD.
hee (: first day. hee. went with the westA girls (: cindy cindy rocks. den blah blah. ONE ROOM TO ONE (: so shiok right?!? LOL. YHOPE (: den we had telematch. HEE. northwest (: nanny nanny poo poo. champions (: hm. yah. yuqian n asha finally came back. and met up with yongmei and kaining. after dinner. we had like 2 teachings oh my. almost slept. den altar call (: hee. SHEPHERDS APPRECIATION NIGHT. i rilly wanted to thank GOD for yuqian. yepp. HEE (: and i want to be a shepherd myself (:
headed to sch first on 2nd day. came back during district/unit huddle. LOL. yepp it was fun telling the others i am from library. HAHAHA. den. i duno why everything dragged again. so we had praise and worship (: hee. v long. and teaching. ALTAR CALL on second night was gr8 (: very very very. hmms. den back to our rooms. i got tau pok so many times. and we tricked the 2 gongs into the game. LOL. den talk to dear. HAHA. but i slept. den left asha and yongmei to entertain her. SORRY DEAR. yepp. slept with yongmei la. ): HAHA.
lala. third day was GREAT (: HEE. but im too tired to type what happen alr. HEE.
so yah. lazy me. so u all cant share my JOY (: LOL. prob typing later? HAHAS. yah.
A SITUATION HAPPENED. A MIRACLE HAS TAKEN PLACE. I BET SO MANY PPLE HAS PRAYED FOR THIS SITUATION TO HAPPEN. no matter what. I WILL FOLLOW HIM. GOD. I WANT TO FOLLOW U in whatever u want to do (: I LOVE JESUS.
the RAIN
not jus any kind of rain. we're talking about divine spiritual rain.
not from the clouds in the sky but from the gates of heaven.
not onto earthly soil but onto the hearts of GOD's people.
and not some miserable measly drizzle that drops unevenly
it'll be an overwhelming heavy downpour that soaks the
very core of our being that drenches our dry and thirsty land.
i want to be that RAIN. even one drop is enough.
to #09
<3
no words to express how much i love you
and
i cant afford to lose you.
we'll pray for the 2Cs
muack <3
from #04
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Sunday, May 28, 2006
long break. (:
break from my thoughts.
ive sorted everything out. yepp. i think. lol.
first priorities (:
GOD
O levels
JIAN FEI
FRIENDS
and her (:
i feel ive jus waken up from a long long dream. i cant seem to rmb what happened. everything's change. everything's different. lala~ cus i have YOU. #09.
PTC was bad (: LOL. i met like 2 teachers and the principal. hmm. i know i should be gettin my A's. i'll try. yah. i'll try for GOD for TEACHERS for PARENTS and for MYSELF (: 5 more months. <3 wish me luck peeps (:
im quieter than before (: <---- by MR FONSEKA (:
to #09
thanks for everything u have done. i enjoyed the nights out with you (: i love talking (: HEE. yepp. and i love you alot alot alot. i miss you like crazy even i only didnt see u for one day. (: hmm. you've conquered my life (: wo hen <3 ni.
look into my eyes
u would see
what u mean to me (:
muah <3
everything i do
i do it for you (:
its the start of the holidays (: YIPPEE. im gonna study hard but play hard too (:
I cant wait for CAMP (: WORSHIP!!! yepps. and hee. i cant wait to spend my nights shaking my ass away (: and the time i want to spend with my beloved TAI YANG (: hee.
some people i would like to thank for the month:
YIQI ZIYI JASMINE JIAJUN NAICHUNG YANGPING (: thanks for being my team mates during the netball games (: yepps. 5 more months. it wld be hard to play ball together alr. ): SOBS.
761 (: thanks for being thr when i was crying so hard. thanks for encouraging me. my grades would improve (: i promise. thanks for the laughter and running in the rain (: I DONT WANT TO SAY GOODBYE.
ASS (: hugs. some things cant be expressed by words. my GREAT confidant. i love you girl.
JOYCE YONGMEI KAINING SHARON JES WEIWEI (: tho im not sure if we'll get into bring it on. but yah. this dance had rilly brought me closer to you sisters in christ. tho we're from diff groups. BUT I RILLY ENJOYED the times with you pple (: THANK GOD FOR EVERYONE OF YOU (: EACH AND EVERY ONE.
YUQIAN GWEN (: i know u people care about me alot. thanks (: i miss the times with you (:
MR SHEN (: hey xi gua mei. LOL. distant from u quiet alot alr. ya. catch up some day and study v v v hard ok. HAHAH. hope u'll find ur miss/mr right soon ya?
zui mei de ai qing wang wang ding ge zai hui yi li... (: such a sad phrase.
#09
I CANT UNTHINK ABOUT YOU
I CANT UNFEEL YOUR TOUCH
I CANT UNHEAR ALL THE WORDS
I CANT UNSAY ALL THE THINGS
THAT USED MEAN SO MUCH
I WISH I COULD ALWAYS REMEMBER
EVERYTHING MY HEART HAS BEEN THRU'
IM FINDIN OUT
ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO DO
ITS NO USE
I CANT UNLOVE YOU.
i love you so much
#04
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Friday, May 12, 2006
hui jia de lu shang
wo ku le
yan lei zai yi ci beng kui le
wu neng wei li
zhe yang zou zhe
zai ye bu gan jiao ao she qiu le
wo hen xiang. hui dao guo qu.
I miss alot of things. alot alot alot. i feel so useless now. I miss God. I miss Dance. I miss yuqian. I miss west B one. I miss ... alot. why is my life manipulatated my so many unnecessary things which dont even bring good to my life? why am i giving in to these temptations. why am i crying over split milk now. it was all my own doings. now im so sad. im going to church later. i want to feel Goc back again. i dun wanna lose this relationship anymore. sorry lord. sorry sorry sorry.
ive stained all my books. my mouse. my keyboard. my hands with my tears. pls forgive me lord. i know you would. but im feeling very sorry for myself. i dun feel like finishing the race alr. can i stop? im tired. i jus feel like falling into a deep sleep now. its painful.
ive to swallow my tears and fake a smile. i dun wan to make anyone sad. esp. her. but i cant control this morning anymore. 130506. ive to shout it out.
okays. i type until thr. den i talk to her.
now laughin my head off alr. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
thanks MR SHEN ((((: HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
=D.
to #09.
wo <3 ni. hen <3 ni.
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Tuesday, May 02, 2006
apparently. i skipped school today. its 1104am now. and i finished two chapters of SS (: so its proven that staying at home was a better choice (: LOL. im so dead. yepp. okay. but i feel so bad about lying to FONSEKA. who called my hse (: LOL. hee. sorry my <3. LOL. u pass the gift to JAN first la (: ehs. yah.
i jus passed my sweet sixteen birthday. hmm. =D thank you LORD. yepp. but wo zhen de bu xiang zhang da at all. so sad. grr (:
THANKS 761 (: i truly love the photo frame =D so meaningful. yepp. and the coconut. and the AH BONG hp strap.HAHAHAHA. we shall open another one the next time we go SENTOSA!
and my babelicious ASS (: and b-link and mr chan. (: THANKS so much. for the banana choco cake and the necklace and bookmark and the scented candles (: YAY!
and mr shen thanks for the whatever u call it bottle and the SWEETS (: and yiling and kailin for the v v v chio myuk wallet =DDD and kuku bao for the chip (: and kayve for her sincerely drawn cards (: the 2Cs for the keychain (: cherie for the SWEET machine HAHAHAHA.
thanks for all the birthday wishes from...yah. hen duo ren. esp. from the pri sch pple! its 4 years alr. and u still rmb my day =D LOL. xiexie <3 we'll meet up v soon ya?!?!? YAY! I LOVE THEM.
and her (: thanks for everything. <3 (: and stop the GREEN adidas! lol. wo <3 ni.
zui mei li de wei xiao
shi ming ming zhi dao tong
dan hai shi yao xiao chu lai
yin wei bi mian na ge shang hai
er zi ji ren shou yi qie
xiao yi xia
yuan lai ke yi zu zhi yi qie (:OKAY. my mid years coming (: i want to study. BYE. (:
i miss DANCE. i miss CHURCH. i miss GOD. i miss LIFE.
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Saturday, April 29, 2006
i wanna be a bitch for one day. someone teach me how. (: LOL.
yahs. i think i jus lost a screw. i cried while reading someone's blog. and i started to think of FONSEKA (: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. so im laughin like a mad hyena now. LOL. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. and i rmbed the talk with mrs chiang 761 and 2 4/7ers this aft at the staff lounge. LOL! hilarious!!! ming ming jiu shi xia yu. still must put snow. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. den we played bball. and i scored (: LOL. was practically screaming like siao zha bor. HAHAHAHAHA. okays. feng ler feng ler feng ler. den we talked about the change we wld predict to see after 10 years.WAHAHAHAHA. they say i wld become dance instructor (: YAY. hahas. den we cab to clementi. THE AUNTY so good. she sheltered us to the TAXI (: HEE. den yah. jiu zhe yang. we went to eat. (: den.. yah. played with ICE (: hee. ok. blah blah blah. kh and datou went hmm hor. ziyi. yq. went home. i went home too! cus i was feeling sick to go ballet. ): MELODY! oh my poor MELODY. hahas. den ya. i went to sleep. den i woke up to do GEOG. den i went j8 (: HEE. yahs. i bought MATHS tys. can u imagine. i bought maths tys. both maths. WOW (: HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
and im going hysterical now. cus of the word XI GUA MEI. hahahahahahahhaahahahahahahhahahahaha, i still rmb when we called da tou MANG GUO MEI. HAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA. bonkers bonkers bonkers. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAhAAHAAHHAHAA. mrs siew today. HAHAhAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. NAI MA MEI. hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahaahaahahahhahahahahahaha.
ohya. ytd. performance was rilly bad. hurhur. nvm. we'll leave with a good name anyw. HEE. and thanks to 761 for bringin that lu chi to sch (: hmm.
to you: kor. sorry ive disappointed you. but ya. i dun wan to control myself now. sorry. if u see this. tell him sorry too. jiu. yah. bu yao guai wo. qi wo ler ): dui bu qi.
hmms. WO ZHI DAO. wo zhi dao. wo zhi dao. WO FENG LE. hahahahahahs. if u are talking to me now online. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAA. i think u wld want to bang me into the wall. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH
i shall blog a proper one tmr. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
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